“May you have the courage to go places that scare you.”— Unknown
“you are going to have seasons of doubt but remember Who got you here.”— a little reminder God whispered into my heart
I want to take care of you every day.
imagine Jesus at Gethsemane declaring that He will not suffer, that no bad thing will happen
imagine Jesus rebuking the cross and His death
where would we be, then?
I’m not saying that we are to embrace every single misery and avoid praying for comfort or grace, but we ARE to embrace His will whatever it looks like at the moment—whether it is despair or joy
because sometimes (most of the time), God uses suffering to prune us, purify us, make us more Christlike
because the end goal is not to make you a happy comfortable Christian
the end goal is to make you more like Christ.
I have seen the hand of God more clearly in the wilderness than on the mountaintops;
adversity is the paintbrush He uses to portray His strength to us
shows us our weakness so we can do nothing else but recognize that we need His strength.
I don’t know what it’s like to sit and do nothing and enjoy it, it’s 100% emotionally, physically and mentally painful to do so and it’s so extremely hard to explain that to people who don’t feel the same
If I am not constantly feeding myself to something until I am exhausted, then I just eat away at myself instead
It doesn’t really need to be a creative thing, in fact often it’s more enjoyable if it’s not creative although the final reward is lower, but it needs to be something I have to think about, and needs to be a constant challenge, this is why I have to be learning, writing, working, making and moving and I wish desperately I could stop but stopping is the same thing as stop breathing, I’ll just suffocate, breathing but inhaling no air
How can I explain it to people who don’t feel the same and what is it called
everything feels tiring and dramatic and world-ending to me i just want to be held and rest
